I am tender and sad as I listen to the news about the church shooting in Charleston, SC.
I see the beautiful faces of those who lost their lives. I notice my heart breaking as I allow tears to fall. Our world holds so much distortion and pain. I hold so much distortion and pain. I am not seeking to blame, I am in a space where I seek to heal this cycle of experiencing and inflicting pain. I recognize that the pattern of devaluing life is re-imprinting on the macro level. It feels so strong and so much bigger than me.
As a Brave Heart Woman I have learned about surrendering to things that are bigger than me.
I have learned that we are the microcosm of the macrocosm. This means we can focus on releasing our feelings of hate and density.
I choose to release patterns that devalue life, all life.
I choose to release the patterns that do not serve the highest good.
I choose to acknowledge my evolution matters and it lifts us all.
I choose to accept that I am the entire ocean.
I have spent many years of my life being angry at other people for their hurtful and hateful actions.
I now recognize that my reaction adds to the ocean. I see how my heart breaking is an opportunity.
I can choose to close it and get angry, or I can choose to leave it open, allowing love to pour out for those who have not learned to live with their hearts open.
I can be an example of a women feeling her pain, allowing it to run its course. I can release without blaming (self or others), without shame about my feelings and without displacing my pain onto others.
I feel this is what Rumi meant when he said, "you have to keep breaking your heart until it opens."
I am in deep gratitude for this awareness. Today I celebrate as I accept that
I am broken hearted,
learning to be open hearted
and through it all
I am brave hearted.