It's with incredible sadness in my heart that I write these words. I know I release pain and sadness by telling my story, which then releases that energy. On the other side, I return with renewed strength. So, here's my story...
Last night, my 6-toed cat, Cinder, scooted out the door as my friend was exiting. We were leaving so I could drive her back home to the opposite end of the ranch. Upon my return, I encouraged Cinder to come back in, she resisted, I persisted. She walked away, so I waited for her to come to me and eventually went inside. My body required I get to bed, so I did a few things, opened the door one more time, and went to bed, with Cinder still outside.
Now she has spent the night out before and entered the next morning. Last night I was up quite a few times during the night, so I opened the door to let her in when I heard the bell on her collar. She entered and I went back to bed. Yet this morning she’s nowhere around, inside or out.
So, was that her essence or spirit returning to let me know ‘all is well’? My other cat Mringa, sees my sadness, yet I sense she still sees Cinder. These furry ones are my kids. You may identify with my sorrow and yet my heart remains open. I know life from many aspects and this is just one of those many aspects.
And I take solace in hearing the mama cows, here on the ranch, bellow for their little ones. The rancher showed up shortly after I got up, with horses and friends. All the cows were herded into the small corral and certain ones were released once he had their grain bins filled. It appears he’s tagging all those without an ear tag and most are the little ones. And they too, are bellowing for their mama.
So, I bid adieu and know I’ve got sister support here at Home. Thanks for spending a few moments with me and see me in the process of surrender, release and restore. I Feels Sooo Goooood to have Sister Support!