To care is the most radical act of our age. It will fill you with grief and despair like you never thought possible. But it also entices you sweetly with the unknowable reality of Freedom. This chance at true choice keeps you seeking an ever higher expression of Love until every resource and every breathe has been taken.
To care is to fight the glorious Sisyphean battle. Each time you cultivate enough motivation to roll your rock to the top of the hill another earth shattering boulder will present itself.
The weight of caring is enormous.
In a world filled with neglect and repression how do you ever decide where your force of presence is most needed? And then the frustrating conclusion comes that to care for others you must momentarily drop out of the game. The extension of that moment is up to you. But you must find a way to be Truthful about your own needs first.
Self care feels selfish if your ego is left unchecked. Yet the true care giver knows that the only way we act on the world is through our own example. To care is to relinquish our control on others. You can't force others to change and when you try to change yourself you find the process an endless exploration.
If you don't embrace change willingly your mind will always find a subtle and cunning way to keep it out. That willingness comes from caring- not caring about comfort or ease or simplicity, but the care that evolves from working with the most intimate delicate nature of your soul.
This type of slow dedicated care will transform you.
And after this transformation has begun (and continues through your Life for as long as you care to keep it) the world will start relating to you in different ways. You no longer have to seek who or what to care for. At the proper place and time your soul family will find you. And caring for them will be effortless.
Until you arrive at that place you can never stop caring. You have to care about people who will hurt you. You have to care about things that will fall apart. You have to break your heart open so recklessly that all the Love in the world will finally fit in it.
To care is the most radical act of our age. But not to care discredits the very act of Living. Life in its fullest splendor is a reciprocal endeavour. You can care for malice and materials and melancholy- for that is your choice. But these things will never return the energy you leave endlessly at their doorsteps. Only the long labour of Love will invite you in and ask that you make a Home in the warmth of its presence.
The path is obscure and the map is vague. But to care gives you a compass. Follow your desire for nurturance to the very ends of your expectation and there, when you least expect it, you will discover your capacity to understand that the Universe has cared for you all along.