A Letter from a Heart Attack
You may have wondered why a key organ such as the heart would be attacked so suddenly and acutely. It wasn’t as if I didn’t try to get your attention.
Did you not even notice the messaging I often gave you? You learned a few symptoms back in Biology 101. You thought you understood the circulatory system, and you understood how the heart operated. Yet some of you pulled back against those returning heart throbs or subtle pains; you knew your noble ambition or even the completion of your agenda took priority. You require more education and perhaps an open heart surgery to set things straight.
It is my hope that you will be open to receiving some inside information. It may not be convenient; yet I believe if you are willing to receive, it will be extremely valuable. Your heart over time has been overloaded with stress that became distress, disappointments, discouragement, disgust, and betrayal. In other words, heartbreak. What was it carrying for you personally? Was it guilt? That one alone can be deadly. See if comparisons or jealousy was involved. You now will have some time to unload and surrender burdens too heavy for you alone to bear.
Let me assure you, lovely one, it was not your fault. I know you have taken many causes on to alleviate some pain in others. You had some measure of success, however it is now your heart’s turn to be receiving that same tenderness and healing touch.
Let us begin with listening. That may be new for many of you who receive all your information through mind and gut. What was it that made you so furious that you ranted and raved? What made you cave in? Were you the bullied one or the one who often ridiculed the one who seemed abnormal to you? Did you wallow in a pity party unable to leave when it was temporarily over? You just couldn’t find the escape hatch out of the sadness or a back door from which to flee. “ My feelings don’t so much matter; I’ll just freeze them for now so they aren’t so obnoxious.”
I do see now how so many unruly emotions created havoc in your heart center. It became necessary for me to seek your attention in a new way…from the inside out.
I came to request your appreciation and respect of your heart rhythms and the possibility or a plan for its wellbeingness. You may never have known your heart to be a gateway in the matter of self-understanding. I implore your assistance in the true healing of your heart. It will require partnership.
Look within for the clues; the heart will nudge you if you ask it to support you.
I want you to be breathing with increased ease. I ask you to pause and reflect acknowledging all its sensitivities. It will inform you. You will feel a gamut of feelings from outrage to relief or surrender, gratitude, clarity, inspiration. Forgive yourself for your ignorance and those others who ignored or deeply scarred your being with foolishness.
I want your tears to be like soft rain on a flower bed. As your heart begins to heal, it may feel sappy. That’s good. In addition, I invite you to look beyond your body into a favorite place out of doors. If you like the birds, let them serenade you and hum along some melody you’ve always loved. You are accessing vital information to your recovery.
Remember you are but a mortal. This work is challenging. I chose you because I know your assignment here will magnify Love in ways untold. You will come to understand my special delivery of this intense pain was for a greater purpose. Your scars need not be permanent. Please receive my message gently. You are contributing in a new way.